Reflective Time

It is nearing the end of the year. That alone is cause for pause and reflection. I am so thankful to be alive and warm, with my children healthy. The older ones left for home today. I am grateful they made it back safe. I miss my dog. I was happy to see that she did not miss me and ran to the car and jumped in tail wagging. I don’t know if it is just because she likes riding in cars so much, or if she likes Boston better than here.

I am still waiting for the official paperwork on my house. I am hoping it happens this year, so I can group all the negative in the same year. I have high hopes for 2012. My physical therapy tests proved that I have improved a great deal. I hope to be able to walk without a cane in public, as much asĀ  I do at home now. I want to be able to run. That will be a great feat, I was not much of a runner before. I was good at sprinting for a bit, when I was a child. As much as I want to type with two hands, I will wait for that miracle to happen much slower than walking.

I have my pictures from my past to sort out during the long cold months. I also want to attempt my crocheting again. I want to research more things to do that are frugal. I need to save every penny, so I can move on in the summer. I am going to learn to accept the things I can not change. One example is my medical bills, there is no way humanly possible I can pay them. Even if I was working two jobs or overtime or both, as I have in the past, the medical bills would still be drowning me. I won’t let them stop me from being be me. I will not eat cat food and go without medicine. I won’t let my bad credit rating stop me from being creative.

how sweet it is