Goodbye Snow, Hello Mud


It was a beautiful warm day today. It dried up the yard a bit, but I still squished into the mud as I walked on the high ground to my car. My socks got wet. I am a big wuss with no wellies, so I did no yard work. There is so much to do outside, there is so much to do inside too. I am overwhelmed. I get burned out easily. I have been working many hours on my ebay, so other things got behind. Tomorrow is the day my son has a counseling appointment, followed by his group meeting, so I will be gone for hours. It should still be daylight when we get home.

My yard actually gets this wet in the summer too. That is why I need raised beds or a container garden. I have just a few more days to payday, so I won’t be getting anything new for my garden this year. My bills are growing exponentially. I was not prepared to live on a fixed income. My whole life was paycheck to paycheck, being disabled just makes the paychecks further apart.

I am eating all the bits and pieces of food in the fridge that get overlooked when something easier and more appetizing is around. Yesterday I used pizza dough I made from scratch and a can of cherry pie filling that was at least a year old, and made cherry calzones. They were yummy. Tonight I used the eggs that became frozen by leaving out all day to thaw, I whipped them and then mixed them into my cornbread recipe and instead of baking I made griddle cakes. My oven is not working, because my electricity needs to be repaired. I finished off my daughters homemade apple butter by cutting bite size griddle cake pieces and mopping up the jar. It was much easier than trying to scrape it out with a utensil one handed. There was only a little left, so I moved on to the amazing raspberry spreadable fruit that I bought when I received much more food stamps. I spread that on and ate until I was finally full. I pig out when I am hungry, in case you did not know. I have enough left over for breakfast and maybe another partial meal. Tomorrow I will most likely go back to pasta. It was on sale a few weeks ago, so we have had that often. My son likes it plain, I love sauce and veggies. I am out of veggies so I might buy some tomorrow with some of my ebay money I transferred over. Once again, if I did not sell anything we would be without food the last week or two. I also have not driven anywhere to conserve my gas so we can make my son’s appointment tomorrow.

I should have taken a walk in the road today, but I felt like a skank. I have not showered in two days because of the drainage problems.  When I went to take a shower today, I realized that the hot water heater must have flooded out the pilot light. I was not courageous enough to try to light it today, but I will be desperate tomorrow. Gas lighting scares me. I guess there is a good chance I won’t blow up, but I would like that chance to be zero. I need hot water to shower and wash dishes. Princesses or Queens should not have to deal with such mundane details. I was a princess in my past life, and should be a queen in this one. I guess I have to be queen of getting stuff done.

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