Pic from a week or so ago

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Love Magnolia trees. I also love Japanese Maple, Fruit Trees, Weeping Trees, Lilac Bushes and many more. I would like to plant most of my yard with trees and mulch, groundcover, raised beds and pathways, and leave just a tiny patch of grass for my dog to pee. I worked on mowing again today.

Missing Positive Posts

IMG_9479I love old buildings. This old industrial building represents my life. It still has business and workers inside! I could hear them shouting over the sound of machines as I took the pick. My insides are still working, thankfully. I still have to interrupt my precious sleep to pee. The broken pains get replaced, not always with prettier panes. A few bricks fell out, but if you get far enough away you can not tell. The patchwork of life. Sometimes it is painful like this holiday just knowing that others have lost their mother or children on Mother’s Day. I am thankful I still have both.

I am going to try to avoid too much sun today. My nose is still red from the past few days. I have many things to list. I have a few things to get ready for my neighborhood garage sale next weekend. I am just going to drag a few things over to my neighbors. I like selling things online because there is less physical movement of items, and usually more profit. I need to start my cucumbers, squash and pumpkins since I plan on working on building my garden the next few weeks as well.

Willows and Water

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Another nice day, rare around here. I mowed a little bit, then had to charge the lawnmower battery. I painted two bowling balls and finished the primer on the gnomies. Not much else got accomplished. I hope it is bright enough tomorrow to take pictures for ebay. I also need to do dishes and vacuum. I can not seem to do housework and outdoor work on the same day.

I took my son for ice cream, our first this season. I let him know that was for helping with the lawn. Of course it is still not finished. I hope to get the weed whacker going tomorrow. I might have to do it between raindrops.

I finally have the exercise ball inflated! It only took a few months. I sat on it and did a few things while playing poker online. I need to do more hardcore core workout….but I will wait a few days until the mowing pain goes away.

Feels like Spring

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I noticed the leaves were coming out at my house. I was mowing my lawn again today, so I don’t have pictures of my own yard. I have too many outdoor projects going on. The lawn is fully mowed yet after two days of killing my body. Also two days of torture trying to get my son to help. He complains, but it is easier and faster for him. We still have to do the backyard and part of one side. There is a slight chance of rain tomorrow. I painted my gnomies, so my hands are covered in primer. I am thinking of either leaving them white or another solid color…..or using a sharpie to add detail. I picked up more broken terra cotta, and moved more dead leaves from last year towards the compost pile. I restacked the birdbath tower/totem….so I guess that cements the decision it needs glue. I have been thinking of what theme I want to draw on the side of my shed. It should be temporary….as in it will take me years to put new siding over it. I am thinking “peace, love, pitbulls”. Then of course I plan on having at least 3 to 4 hanging baskets/planters of flowers on this wall ¬†too. I started a bunch of coleus inside, since it did well last year in my shady north facing front of my house. They are so tiny now and I don’t know if any of my started plants will be hardy enough to thrive outside in a few weeks. I will probably transition them to being on the porch first before the fierce cruel world. I also noticed I have a plant I thought was an annual thriving all over even out of the pot and on the ground after several weeks of negative temps. That did well in the shade too, so I hope to transfer some to other pots soon. My memory is so bad, I am going to have to label my pots as to which I planted and when.

Forgetful Findings

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This looked even prettier in person. The light was really dancing off the water. There were at least three ducks. I would have never even driven here today, but my son remembered he had an appointment. I totally forgot and had only 10 minutes to get myself together. I had been doing yardwork, my pants were covered in grass and grass stains. My shoes most likely had dog poop on them somewhere. Hopefully just a little. I did manage to grab my camera, and bring along my neglected poochie. She hates to be outside, so she was watching me through the window as I worked outside. No doubt she was frazzled thinking of ways to save me from the mower sound. Maybe even more frazzled that I was going to leave her home alone. She was the perfect riding companion today after we dropped my son off. I dropped off my bag of donated clothing, just the one that is already in the car. Then we went just out of town, so I thought, to see what the sign I always drive by is about. Well we drove too far in my opinion, and I am still not sure what the sign is about. But we did drive through some cool back roads. Then back to the city of Rome, past this other “park” I was always curious about but never drove down the road. It was a state fishing site. We stayed in the car, since there were some other cars there and I did not want antsy pants to attack another dog.

I took the picture of the hyacinths today too. They were just outside my parking space waiting for my son. It was a beautiful day. All my pictures came out great. I even went back to yard work when I got home. I also forgot to make my son’s lunch pizza. That is why I am even writing this post. I am waiting for the pizza to cool at 1:30AM. Just a typical day for me.

If only I could get some respect

IMG_9486It is National Stroke Awareness Month and I shared two different facebook posts…one specifically asks to share to spread awareness of stroke….none of my 321 friends have shared it and only about 5 or 6 liked it.

I also belong to a humane justice group, so in addition of sharing with my facebook peeps, I present you with a simple click on and fill out petition.

<a href=”http://www.gopetition.com/petitions/new-york-city-animal-shelters-are-in-violation-of-humane-laws-and-conducting-a-veiled-conspiracy-of-murder-we-demand-an-investigation.html”>Investigate New York City Animal Shelters In Violation of Humane Laws and the Public Trust Petition | GoPetition</a>

I understand if your computer does not work well, but if you could please sign this simple petition, it will help some animals from suffering.

 

Thanks for caring….and for those that don’t listen to my anti-stroke rants….namely my family…..I hope you get sick of listening to me and finally learn some preventive measures, including reducing stress.

I Guess I Needed Sleep

My son left with the neighbors at 5PM and I knew he would not be back until much later. I planned on listing more Ebay and maybe cleaning. Of course first I needed a nap. I woke up early and stayed awake which is unusual for me. So eight hours later I wake up and realize nothing is going to get done until tomorrow. I took my meds and let the dog out. I was charging my kindle, so hopefully I can use it tomorrow.

I missed all the garage sales going on yesterday. I had other errands to run. I can not do more than three stops without getting frazzeled. I hope something interesting is happening Sunday. I would like to see at least one yard sale. I need it to be nice. I need my lawn mowed.

Prince Charming

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He is at the awkward age of 14, shooting up taller than me. He wants one certain girl to like him. He does not realize in a few years all the girls will be fighting over him. He really did not want his picture taken, so I get the unhappy face. I am so happy he endured tonights dance. Previous times he called me early to pick him up.

My boyfriend’s son is 15, and going on his first “date” tonight. I asked him how does that work when he is not old enough to drive, or have money. She lives on the next street over, they are just going to hang out.

Let’s Talk About Depression

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That is a state trooper parked outside in front of my house. (view through my door curtains, the brown house is vacant) They just happened to pull over someone for a traffic violation, rare that it happened on my “side” street. Not too long ago a 59 year old couple stood in front of a train in my town with the purpose of ending their “hopeless” life. The wife had recently had a few operations on her brain for aneurysms. I know you always can not tell when people can not take it anymore. These people had loving families. I think that hospitals and healthcare professionals need to educate patients and point them to help following a life changing surgery. It kind of hit close to home for me both literally happening in the same town that I live. It also was close to me figuratively as a stroke patient I have dealt with some of the life changing disappointments that permanent disabilities bring.

I find myself depressed more often in the Winter, even pre-stroke. I am dealing with my teenage son’s depression now. It is not easy to make others realize the pressure it puts on the caregiver. I have family and society stigma, dealing with different opinions and judgements of people that don’t have to see the suffering of the depressed on a daily basis. My son describes it as “hurting so much he does not want to be alive”. I can’t even fathom that pain. I question if he really is feeling pain, and if I am being played. This did not happen overnight. People do not wake up one day and decide they have had enough. I can not really say anymore, I am not an expert. I am just observing that depression sucks and I wish I knew how to take away everyones pain.