Day: June 19, 2014

I Am Not Alone, but it feels like it so often

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You are not alone.

In the midst of hard times, it’s easy to look around and see a bunch of people who seem to be doing just fine. But they’re not. We’re all struggling in our own way. And if we could just be brave enough to open up about it, and talk to each other, we’d realize that we are not alone in feeling lost and alone.

So many of us are fighting the same exact battle alongside you. We are all in this together. So no matter how embarrassed or pathetic you feel about your own situation, know that there are others out there experiencing the same emotions. When you hear yourself say, “I am all alone,” it’s just your worried mind trying to sell you a lie. There’s always someone who can relate to you. Perhaps you can’t immediately talk to them, but they are out there.

If you’re feeling desperate right now, hear me: I often feel and think and struggle much like you do. I care about many of the things you care about, just in my own way. And although some people do not understand us, we understand each other. YOU are not alone!

 

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I have been struggling with this since my stroke. I feel alone at most times on so many levels. In reality, just my dog up my butt or I really would not have anyone to talk to 95% of the day….while my son is in school, but also when he is not. I keep trying the meetup thing, but I end up alone half of the time there too. I also end up with questions about my stroke, which I don’t mind, but I want to be seen as a person not a strokie. Of course the curse of facebook, everyone is so chatty when they reconnect after not hearing from them in years….then the silent treatment for months at a time.

Rant over, because I really like being alone….once in awhile. I just think since I don’t work everyday I am not conversing with people on a daily basis. I finished, with my son’s help, 95% of the lawn mowing and called it done. It needs some weed whacking but I will do it when I feel like it. I was sweaty, red faced and over heated several times today. Now part of my underarm is sore and I blame pushing and pulling the mower through the holes and dips in my yard.

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My “Dead” tree survived a storm

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We had a F1 tornado touch down just a few blocks from my house. I did not go look at that damage, I just saw a mangled tree on facebook. My son also reported he saw a sign that was damaged too.

Things I feared would happen when a storm that bad hit nearby or directly would be my tree that drops dead branches every time the wind blows or it rains too hard would completely fall down. But this tree just dropped a few small dead branches this time. I had a petunia plant that turned over and I had to repot…it was a little dried out since I did not see it until I went out in the afternoon. I also had a wood crate tip over and a small metal wagon a few feet from where I last saw it. I was happy my tomato tree did not turn over. I checked carefully and the three green tomatoes now bigger than golf balls are still green and not eaten by any creatures yet.

Our power was out from 10:30 ish until 4 AM. I am now more prepared, I have my little flashlight with batteries. I told my  son to find his, but I doubt he did. I am not going to stock up on food. If I did not eat it all, which I would, the tornado would probably smash it and fly it to unknown lands. I don’t really stock up on water either, there is a big lake within 15 minutes drive from my house. If something affects my area, I could temporarily go to another friends or relatives for awhile.

I also got an update on the bush I tried to propagate yesterday. It might be a forsythia. This is common, and I should really look it up to be sure. A guy I used to work with just posted his unruly forsythia, and the leaves and leaf pattern look similar.

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