Inside My Mind

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My thoughts are always racing around. Pinging from one corner to another, getting caught up in the nooks and crannies of my brain. Some thoughts keep moving, some I try to recall. The new thoughts from things I just read…they make so much sense I say aha, this is what I need or how I should live. Those thoughts vanish, or drown in my old thoughts. The heavy thoughts and dark thoughts always find their way back. I must keep myself busy and stop having these imaginary conversations in my head. I listen to music, it helps. It gives the thoughts some rhythm and now I want to dance. I want to learn how to dance better, I want to belly dance. I want both sides to flow freely. I want to be part of a flash mob. It will make a statement, yet I won’t be singled out, I will blend in. Everybody dance.

I hear the music. The words are so sweet. So sweet to have lived that way if only for a moment.

Summer Is Over, With A Slap To The Face

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I had my son put away the lawn rake and bring out the snow shovels. I have two of my outdoor chairs inside the shed already with the other two soon to follow. My heat has been on for days if not weeks. I looked at this picture and noticed the changing colors in the background. I did not notice while I was there. I guess I was more focused on taking my dog for a walk, and walking myself. I tried to avoid the fallen acorns.

Notice who is in the driver seat. People really like to see her there. It is a conversation starter. She is so comical, and really bummed I did not let her out with me here. I did walk her on the other side of the park, where no other dogs were around. There were none around here either, but lots of squirrels. There was also several campers so the potential of a dog in one was too much for me to handle. She is too strong for me to walk casually with. She pulls me off balance too many times in excitement going from my front door to the car.

Today I was mellow. I stayed home all day. I will be fixing my ATM card situation tomorrow. I continued listing items on Ebay, and hope to break my record without any returns this month.

My 4 Year Anniversary Yo!

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It’s my Anniversary with Word Press…they congratulated me, or I would not have known. I am 52 and alone. My new guy turns out not that into me. He wants to improve himself…cough cough, cry. I have been alone longer than with someone.

I am a lovable bundle of fun. Who would not want to be with me? I love myself. I really thought I finally hit it off with someone, but I am let down again. I don’t have a clue as to what I am doing wrong. Somebody please clue me in.