Day 18 of Positive Affirmations

First a quote  “Identify your problems but give your power and energy to solutions.” Tony Robbins

My problem is I am trying to identify my problems…lol. My head is killing me today. I only slept about an hour. My head is still “ringing” either from my recent past emotional rollercoaster or too much caffeine yesterday. I had one cup of tea and one cup of hot chocolate, so one too many.

Todays positive affirmation, I actually made up myself for once:

I will move forward. onward to a better future. There is always good days ahead.

It’s 2:33 AM. I am letting off steam


Right now my heart is racing, I am no longer shaking. I starting shaking when I read the guy that broke up with me is now in a relationship. I am so hurt, I have been hurt for awhile. I poured so much energy into what I thought was the love of my life.

I am wondering if I will ever find somebody that loves me…for more than a month or year…I want someone forever. I want to learn what I am doing wrong. I have asked, and got no answers. I love myself. I know I will not meet anyone staying home about 99% of the time.

So I am not a big believer in horoscope, but for shizz and giggles I recently signed up for a daily horoscope to be sent to my inbox. This was todays:

LEO (July 23-Aug. 22). There’s a mounting tension that, if you let build without release, could be destructive. Let off steam periodically throughout the day. By the way, you could use a few more tools for stress relief in your arsenal.

I was actually told in rehab that one of my contributing factors to my stroke was I did not deal with stress well. I think I am dealing with this recent stress just fine. The shaking and heart racing thing scares me. WTF. I guess I need to stop thinking all together to be happy.