Right now my heart is racing, I am no longer shaking. I starting shaking when I read the guy that broke up with me is now in a relationship. I am so hurt, I have been hurt for awhile. I poured so much energy into what I thought was the love of my life.
I am wondering if I will ever find somebody that loves me…for more than a month or year…I want someone forever. I want to learn what I am doing wrong. I have asked, and got no answers. I love myself. I know I will not meet anyone staying home about 99% of the time.
So I am not a big believer in horoscope, but for shizz and giggles I recently signed up for a daily horoscope to be sent to my inbox. This was todays:
LEO (July 23-Aug. 22). There’s a mounting tension that, if you let build without release, could be destructive. Let off steam periodically throughout the day. By the way, you could use a few more tools for stress relief in your arsenal.
I was actually told in rehab that one of my contributing factors to my stroke was I did not deal with stress well. I think I am dealing with this recent stress just fine. The shaking and heart racing thing scares me. WTF. I guess I need to stop thinking all together to be happy.